Sometimes we work away at our personal problems for so long, it becomes a way of being rather than living the new happier reality we are working towards. I often remember the client who called in the middle of the afternoon, after months of sessions working at very serious life issues – she sounded weirdly distressed. She said “I just got back from a late lunch, and a long gab with colleagues and I am feeling something really different. ” Cautiously she said… “I think I am happy!” I couldn’t help but laugh.
When we anticipate our days to be full of distress, and spending our waking moments ducking problems or trying to heal them, we can physically forget what it feels like to be happy. By continuing to focus on what we don’t want we get more and more of that kind of energy. But our efforts towards transformation can be expedited if we take the time to not only appreciate the things that are now going well for us, but also indulge in what makes us happy. Be careful because with inner transformation, what makes us happy can change over time.
At the moment I am immersed in the world of quilting, a favorite hobby pasttime. Recently I discovered within myself that I am as joyous just being with my fabric as I am finishing a quilting project. Earlier this spring, I returned from the quilt shop with a cute panel for a table cloth I have dubbed ‘The Paris Tea Quilt” , and 4 or 5 fat quarters of different fabrics (a yard of fabric cut in 4 square blocks). I thought I would just ‘play’ with them to design a way to quilt them together while waiting for the water to boil for a cup of tea. When I finally looked up and checked on the tea… it was a full 2 hours later!!!!!
The old me may have been worried that I spent so much time on a passion instead of working away at something seemingly more important. Instead, I noted the new high energy state I was experiencing with the time spent with my fabric.
What makes you happy? Where can you spend hours that fly by like a few minutes before you know it? What does it do to your state of energy?
Comments welcomed
With love and light,
Carolyn
Here are some photos I took to document the process. The inspiring teacup fabric is designed by Holly Holden of Lake House Designs. Would love to hear how she came up with this fabulous design. You can’t really see it in these photos but the panel of cups has 4 rows of 7 cups and NO TWO are the same!!
carolynwinter.org 